The fact that you bring your query to Joanna Brooks rather than church authorities reveals much. And they manage to get the time for it. By those standards, I was a failure, my husband wasn't "good enough" - and my daughter had ambitious real goals that required a lot of time and effort. And our strength doesn't necessarily come from ego or wealth. My husband is midway throug his first year of cardiology fellowship and we have been having a tough time lately.
I was born and raised in the LDS faith. Because Utah mormons are waayyy different than mormons everywhere else. The way he wanted to live his life, the family he wanted to have, the wife he dreamt of- matched the type of person I longed for.
My mom always said the more you have, the more it owns you, so true. I too feel that I am becoming a mistress to his own career. If she won't reason with your investigation of the church, nope on out and go on your merry way. The fact that your guy came right out and said he didn't care what you thought and that we was going to spend his money and time the way he wanted indicates that he still thinks of himself as single. They are grown now and serving their country but luckily they still need Mom and Dad sometimes!. Keep yourself busy and do what you would normally be doing besides sitting around waiting for a guy to call. The church essays that address that linked at www. Is it wrong that I feel guilty?.
I won't lie, there are times I have said to myself "what am I doing living like this. Affection will come and go based on our attitudes, and will not carry through the rough spots в married in the Church or outside. I would not have wanted to be dismissed as crazy and unworthy of attention when I was still a member, because it wouldn't have been true. I wish I could find a support group in South Africa. And, as I was writing the reply, above, those thoughts went through my head. It sucks to admit, but I broke up with him after 6 months because I didn't think there was any point if we couldn't be together forever. She's most likely secretly playing out fantasies of converting you, marrying you in a Mormon temple, and having a very Mormon life, OP.